This is ridiculous.

I thought I could sleep it off, but I woke up depressed.

And apparently I lost the will to stay healthy. I got a bad sore throat. My voice isn't working.

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Created at 3:30 AM
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I've had such a bad spate of cumulative failure recently that I really want to quit.

I want to get away from everything, just for a while, and not have anyone ask about me or why or talk about where I'm at.

I just want some ME time.

What's the point of telling yourself that you can live to fight another round when you meet failure after failure every week.

This would be the worst downtime I've had in months, and I don't find it funny anymore.

And when I don't find falure funny, it's not a good thing. It's not a good thing for me.

God am I really this weak? Am I really only this strong? If I NEED to be that strong, then seriously, I'm tugging on that emergency lever now. I need some help. Desperately. If not, I'll most certainly give up. By tomorrow.

And yes, if you wanna stop respecting me now, it's the perfect time to do it. I'll take a long time to get myself back together, thank you very much.

But if I do.

It means I've overcome something. And when a man gets past a barrier, he becomes stronger.

In the meantime though.

I'm still down. Really down. And I'm blogging this on purpose to archive this, so when I look back, if I actually manage to pick myself up from all this nonsense that's been happening to me, I can finally laugh at it. Cos I'll find it funny by then.

Now though.

I don't feel like laughing.

I have a terrible headache, I'm tired, my body's aching, and I feel like shit.

Way to go, strong and fearless leader.

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Created at 7:31 PM
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Name: Jerrold Hong
Age: 19 (as of 2008)

I'm an avid music lover. I love singing and (surprise surprise!) I actually sing in tune. Studied in a certain PAP kindergarten before moving on to LPS, then BBSS (which rocks), followed by PJC for PAE (which undoubtedly ALSO rocks) and lastly, ACJC (ROCKS THE MOST). I live in BUKIT PANJANG (not Choa Chu Kang or Bukit Batok), at Senja Grand, the new estate which forever undergoes upgrading (surprisingly without any noise).

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